Book Excerpt:
The
blood in her mouth tasted like hot pennies.
Flinching as a secondary arterial spray lashed her
face, she kept her fingers clenched in her tormenter’s hair, holding his head
aloft for the slice of the blade she’d stolen from his toolkit when his back
was turned.
That mistake had just cost him his life.
Her stomach lurched, and she shoved the dead man away,
wishing he’d deafened her when he boxed her ears on the second—third?—day, so
she couldn’t hear the back of his skull hit the concrete floor with a sickening
thwack. Her hand shook, the knife
threatening to slip from her mangled fingers, but once it fell, she knew she
wouldn’t be able to pick it back up, and she couldn’t afford to be weaponless.
Injured knuckles white around the slick rubber grip, she staggered back until
her shoulders hit the far wall of her prison.
Her torture chamber.
The blood cooling on her face ratcheted her panic up a
notch. Every breath was pure agony, broken ribs prodding like iron pokers
against her lungs. Every square inch of skin on her back burned like hellfire.
Her body was one giant bruise, her mind a tangled mess. Tears spilled down her
cheeks, wet and warm—and silent.
She’d not made a sound when she slit her captor’s
throat. Her family would be so proud.
The thought made her tears fall faster. A longing for
home and the Queen Anne Victorian in which she’d grown up, the same longing she
had buried deep for the past year, threatened to bring her to her knees, but
no. No. It was just like the knife—if
she fell, she’d never get back up, and eventually, someone was going to come
looking for the man she had killed.
John. He’d told her his name was John, but surely that
was a lie. Monsters never told the truth.
Swallowing her nausea, she stumbled toward John’s
crumpled body. The thick pool of blood was unavoidable, though she shuddered
when red seeped between her bare toes. Dizziness swamped her when she dropped
into a crouch, the hand not holding the blade searching the pockets of John’s
cargos for his key card.
Her victory upon locating the card was short-lived
when she remembered what came next.
Each time John had “visited” her, it had become harder
and harder to stay conscious. Everything in her hurt
as she’d never hurt before. The temptation to let her eyes slide
shut forever had been so strong, John singing soothingly while he disinfected
his tools from their session.
Lullabies. He sang her lullabies. Rock-a-bye
baby, on the tree top….
She had always remained awake long enough to watch him
leave, knowing he’d be back to resume her torture. The key card was merely half
the equation when it came to unlocking the door. John’s fingerprint was the
other.
When the wind blows, the cradle will rock….
Dragging John’s body to the scanner mounted next to
the door was not an option, not in her weakened state. Her gaze caught on his
limp hand, and a tremor wracked her. There was no choice. Flattening his palm
against the bloody floor, she lowered the knife.
When the bough breaks, the cradle will fall….
She couldn’t help it—she vomited. But when her
retching ceased, she gingerly picked up the severed finger and rose from her
crouch. She almost didn’t feel the wetness underfoot anymore, which meant
blessed numbness had nearly arrived. Key card first, then the bloody print on
the scanner’s screen, and she held her breath.
And down will come baby, cradle and—
The near-silent snick of
the steel door unlatching shook John’s voice from her head. Freedom. Oh, God,
freedom from this hellhole was so close, so amazingly close she was dizzy with
it.
Her tears fell harder. Fuck.
Why couldn’t she stop crying?
With a soft whirring noise, the door slid open, and a
bunker-style hallway cast in eerie greenish light was revealed. She was
underground, as suspected. A memory flashed, of John using a medical scalpel to
dig the GPS tracker out from behind her ear. There had been nothing clinical or
precise in how he’d wielded that blade.
Can’t have them finding you before we’re done here,
little girl.
She didn’t bother looking back at his lifeless form as
she eased through the door, still clutching his finger and key card. They might
still prove useful in helping her escape this prison; John would not.
Adjusting her grip on the knife, she crept down the
hall, ignoring the black spots clouding her vision and the vicious pounding of
her head. It felt as though her brain were trying to punch its way through her
skull, and she simply didn’t have time for
that nonsense, because someone was watching her. Her hazy thoughts pictured the
camera mounted in the corner of her cell, its little red dot blinking, always
blinking. Someone would know what she’d done to John, and she refused to wait
for retaliation to find her.
Run now. Collapse later.
The concrete was cold beneath her sticky, blood-soaked
feet, with a chill that crept up her ankles, her calves, making her knees knock
together. She was so tired. It had been at least a day since John had given her
anything to drink, and he’d never provided food. As she slowly made her way
down the empty corridor, her senses began to fail her, the muted buzz in her
ears blocking out the faint echo of her rasping breaths. Her adrenaline rush
from the kill was over.
Perhaps…perhaps she wouldn’t make it out of here,
after all.
A loud sob escaped against her will.
The sounds of footsteps, heavy and booted, broke
through the encroaching deafness, and then there he stood in front of her,
limned in the faint glow of the bunker lights, a tall man with ice for eyes and
a nasty-looking gun.
“Beth.”
She
blinked at him through her tears, her relief short-lived as a wave of
bitterness
sweeping
through her battered body as she saw where, precisely, that gun was aimed. Her
voice cracked, breaking low and hoarse when she spoke. “Shot through the heart,
and you’re to blame.”
She hummed the rest.
You give love a bad name.